I've always been pretty well off and provided for but really have rather small resume full of patches of not doing anything at all. I've travelled, been able to shop till I dropped and lived my life up. However, professionally I'm nowhere. My resume sucks, and I only have a handful of jobs I did in high school or college but never did anythig afterwards and that was years ago, nothing serious, and a really really long gap in employment. I wasn't really raised to be a career person,or care about my resume or try to ';always'; work. I never even thought that we always had to be employed continulously, otherwise people looked at us as weird. I never really felt like I belonged in this system, or had it work for me, or even cared.
But I'm in my mid 20s now, and I obviously don't want to end up being a complete loser, and definitely want to start my professional life. The good news is that I do have plenty of friends/connections, and things I've done, activity/club/organization wise and I finished college, but the bad news is that I was a spoiled brat with no great work history.
I'm also aware that the older I get and don't work, the more horrible it will look. However, I have ALOT of real fears about work,fear of the workplace/anxieties about it, social issues, and even bipolar stuff, which I obviously would NEVER tell my employer.
But truth be told, I have one of those fear of success things, and I always kept myself from doing anything.
I'm going to finally seek help with this but I'm feeling suicidal because I feel like a failure with a horrible resume.
What can I do, and is there hope for me, to start my lfie up in this age of my life?
Or will I have to live with the fact that I'll always have a shitty resume and that I'm a loser?
I don't want to live with that so I might as well commit suicide if that were the case.
i'm just really scared because I don't know why I'm so afraid of a career but at the same time I want one.How can you get a job/move on with your life if you haven't worked alot, and have a bad resume?
I feel for you! I'm about 10 years older than you are %26amp; have the same MH %26amp; work history problems. I used to have a huge trust fund too, which has since been depleted as a result of said problems. Imagine you 10 years from now with no partner %26amp; no trust fund - take it from me: see a government vocational rehab counselor NOW. I'm just starting, and wish I would have known this was an option back when I was paying a greedy, incompetent therapist $130/hr 2x/week 100% out of pocket for this kind ouf counseling. Even if you can afford a private therapist, I still suggest seeing one that works though your county or state b/c any person with a disability is entitled to this service, even if they are not actually disabled. Good luck - I wish you all the best.
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